Who Am I Right Now

Sometimes I get really disoriented and feel like I don’t know who I am. That’s how I’m feeling right now.

I’m probably going to take some medicine. I’m starting to piece together that it might just be part of how I experience panic attacks.

My thoughts start to race so much that I don’t know which direction to think in. I get so many contradicting thoughts at once that it makes my head spin. Then I start asking myself, what’s your real thought? Who are you really?

But it’s not that simple. It’s not something easily put into words.

I hope in 2026 I can figure my shit out enough to make some changes that make living day to day something I actually enjoy. I say that because, at the same time I’m feeling panicked, I’m also feeling depressed. But it’s like each one has its own wall, they don’t blend, they just sit beside each other.

Idk, I know I sound crazy, but that’s basically what it feels like right now. Anyway, I’m going to take some medicine. I’ll probably feel better once it kicks in. Then I’m going to eat some Hi-Chews and watch the new It TV show.

Happy Halloween, ya nerds 😘