Sleepless Frustrations

I’m pretty frustrated with my sleep this week. I’ve been having to take Klonopin to fall asleep most nights, and then I struggle to wake up in the morning. The nights I’ve tried to tough it out (because I don’t like consistently taking this med without breaks), I either can’t fall asleep at all or, like tonight, I sleep for two hours and then I’m wide awake.

My sleep is consistently filled with nightmares. I think that’s part of the problem, but I’m not fully sure. Sometimes I even wake up punching and screaming. (Found out this gets exacerbated on Zoloft.) When I was on Zoloft, this was happening almost every night, so my psych switched me to Effexor which, thankfully, has reduced the sleep fighting back to what it was before meds.

So here I am, up at 2 a.m., writing out my frustrations while my neck massager works on the knots in my back.

Silver lining: my lab, Lyndsey, loves to snuggle me when I wake up in the middle of the night, and I think I love it just as much. The weight of her against my chest and her soft ears brushing my face soften the frustration.

Anyway, I think I’m going to try to get these eyes to stay shut.

Until next time ✌🏻