Less Thoughts, More Reading?

I haven’t really had the cognitive ability to reflect and write the last couple of days. I can’t access the deep thinking like I normally can.

Which has been nice, in that I don’t suffer as much emotionally when I can’t think.

I’ve had grief pop up, but not for more than a minute at a time, so it’s been a lot lighter.

My sleep has been a shit show the last couple of weeks. Or maybe just a week? I don’t know, hard to say. I just woke up from a nap, but I feel groggy.

I have been having one thought lately that I don’t usually have, and that’s what I want to try to focus on going into this new year. I don’t have an answer yet, and I might not get one beforehand, but maybe I’ll figure it out before the halfway point.

As I was going to publish this post, I realized what that thought might actually be.

I think I’d like to focus on reading more and actually tracking the books I read.

I don’t really know what a goal would be for me. There are a lot of times I can’t concentrate long enough to read, and that makes me sad, because as a kid I always had a book in my hand.

So maybe the goal isn’t a number. Maybe it’s just the intention of trying, and keeping track when I do.