Birthdays

My birthdays are always really hard for me.

I don’t feel deserving of all the best wishes and with everything being really heavy lately, it is messing with me more than usual. I’m so appreciative of the people who take the time to let me know they are thinking of me, and I wish that my heart could fully accept it.

I’m also appreciative of the pressure release yesterday offered me, and the afternoon of feeling a little less weighed down… and at the same time I also wish I could have held that feeling a little longer. I wish I wasn’t struggling so much right now.

I’m probably going to spend the day working with Harry Styles singing into my ears, at least my ears feel deserving of his voice 🤣