Anxious Body, Calm Mind

I’ve felt pretty stable today mentally. My body is just deciding to give me trouble. Well, not trouble, but I guess I’m feeling things more somatically today. I’ve been having bouts of struggling to breathe, but I think it’s just anxiety.

I was going to go to a drag show tonight, but I don’t think I have the bandwidth to leave my house. Being stuck in my head is definitely a more distressing experience than feeling this low-level panic, but it’s definitely not fun either. It feels like it amplifies right to the brink of a panic attack and then goes back down, and it does that over and over again.

I’m not really sure what’s going on.

Oh shit. I need to take my meds. LOL. I don’t think that’s what’s going on, but it made me remember I hadn’t taken my medicine yet today.

I just suddenly started feeling really vulnerable about making this post. Maybe I’m about to have an anxiety attack? I don’t know. It’s definitely weird to be feeling this back-and-forth shift. I know this post is probably all over the place. I don’t really have the attention span to write like I normally do.

Well, let’s just hope I don’t have an anxiety attack, panic attack, or meltdown… because it sure feels like something is about to happen 🤣