After Therapy Today

After therapy today, I can really feel my sense of body experience change.

I feel like I’m pulled out of myself.

And at the same time, I can feel things rising up

into my chest,

into my throat,

expanding.

I’ll be honest… starting over with this level of bodily insight, with this capacity, is weird.

I feel wobbly.

Being able to forgive my parents and have compassion for them as humans has been such a relieving feeling too.

Because now I can connect with who they are,

and not feel bitterness for who they were.

Those are as good as my explanations can get.

But if you knew how much work it took,

how hard it was for me to get here,

you’d be able to understand the awe

and the pride I feel in myself.

Despite my mistakes.

Despite not always doing my best.

I have grown so much.